担心 worrying

Chinese version

要考试了，我还有心情的update我的部落格，就是咯，是没有心情读书和专心不到，所以才来这里走一趟咯。。。。没什么发现，也没看到什么东西。。。

前天，我和肉丸他们去拜神，因为刚好是初一，所以就去拜拜一下也刚好要考试了。 只是去求个平安和保佑一切顺利。 我还是知道要读书，要努力用功。。。。在这里帮自己加油打气。。加油咯lucas..go go 加油咯。然后，就去吃韩国餐。。。懒惰放照片上来。。。

刚才12点钟am，我姐突然和我在msn聊天，可以看得出她的生活不是很高兴咯。我觉得很伤心和心痛，古语说的对，当一个人成长和思想慢慢成熟的时候，就会开始担心家里每个人是不是开心。是不是活得很好。本公子也不例外，虽然我不是什么有钱家的孩子，也不是什么名公子，但是我非常担心我家人。

我一直觉得自己来这里读书是对的，可是现在看起来好像有点不好咯，虽然我成绩一直在进步，而且比起以前好很多，但是心里一点都没有满足感。 因为，那些都是我拼到要死不死才得到的，而不是轻轻松松的得到。 有人说我聪明，我不觉得，我只知道我是靠努力而已。我一点小聪明都没有。如果，当初在家乡那边随便一间的学院读的话，现在可能还是和以前一样不会说英文，现在我的英文也不是很好，但是比起以前还来得好咯。

我又离题了。。。。。快点跑回来。。哈哈。。对了，刚才说到家人。。。zomok就突然变到自己的东西去了。。。晕。。。

虽然，和姐姐的一小时交谈，我却发现了很多东西，她很不高兴，很失望，很后悔，很无助。。。。我真的很想帮她咯。如果有时光机就好了。。。。我家虽然是个小康之家，但是我们这一家的故事，如果要拍成电视剧，可能还会比“家好月园”来得有看头咯。终之，你所在电视剧里看到的东西都发生过在我家里咯。。。只有一个。。。我家没有家产而已。。。哈哈。。

听姐姐说，爸爸想买车，他只是想。。。我知道的，他知道我可能还会再升学。。。。其实，我家人为了我已经放弃了很多东西咯， 想买房子，但是拿那些钱给我读学院，现在想买车，可能又是我在放弃。。。我已经害他们放弃了很多东西。

所以，我的终结就是要努力然后赚多多的钱来给他们和你扑他们的放弃。。。

我会读完我的diploma后就去做工了，所以我不会再读书了。如果要读，也可能等我做工有钱了再读吧。

English version

still has one more day, my this semester final exam will be coming, but I'm still at here? yes, I'm here just take a look around, see whether have any interesting things happen, but nothing special, still the same.

last few day, jazz and i went to near Jalan Gasing Thai Temple for pray because it was the 1st day of the month in Buddhism. i went there just for pray and pray for my family and myself. i just hope everything is fine, i know that i can't too depends this kind of things. but this is just to let myself feel more comfortable only. after that, we went to AmCorp mall having our dinner - Korea food. i'm too lazy to update pictures......

just now 12am, i just msn with my sister, i can feel that she now is unhappy, hopeless, disappointed and sad. i knew she well. what can i do? i also feel sad and unhappy. older people said that when someone is become older or mature; the way you think will be different. it's correct. i agree with that. in the other hand, i from a small family, but many things happened in my family started last time. if want to show it, i think the story will interesting than the " Moonlight Resonance". the only things different that it's my family don't have a huge
property....haha

i heard my sister said that my father wants to buy a car, i knew that he won't buy. he just thinks about it only. seriously, they give up so many things and let me study at here. for example, they're planned want to buy a house but the take out the money for my studies. now my father want to buy a car also can't because i knew he will think maybe i will continue study for my degree. really sad case. i so love them, but i don't know when i can buy a big house and a nice car for them. i don't want let them to wait. i know that, we don't know what will happen in the coming day.

lastly, i decide that i will stop to study after i finish my diploma, maybe some of my friends will say what a pity kid. i will study if i have money.